Here to another long weekend for me, i hope it goes by fast, how i hate these weekends where i have to work when i want to be anywhere but at my job, i love the people i work w/ dont get me wrong it is just the place that i dont really like, it seems as soon as i walk in i get a headache and nothing soothes it at least not for the 12 hours that i am there, the only high light i have there is this guy that i like a lot and we get along great, but he doesnt see me as more than a friend, and that is fine w/ me somedays, but sometimes i wonder why am i so alone here, i like to be alone but not all the time but that is all i seem to know and my cats are the only ones that see this side of me on a regular basis and there is nothing that they can do to cheer me up.....how do you go on when your not wanted.......that is something that has been on my mind a lot for the past few weeks and  i still havent come up w/ an answer for that, and that is when i just lock myself up in my apartment, shut off phone and hide......